As I sat there and thought about her, I felt (so) sorry for what I’d done, I just wanted to crumble and then (up) and run away.
I just turned around to face her with the words fighting in my mind, but somehow I had to tell her anyway.
Still I didn’t know how to face it, not today.
I said, “Darling please forgive me, I don’t know why but it happened, you see I think that I simply lost my mind.”
“I was wild and filled with liquor and I thought my feelings for her were strong, but sweetheart right now and on my knees, I know that I was wrong.”
Lucy just stood there gazing at me and not one word came from her mouth, and while the tears ran down her face, suddenly, she smiled.
She said, “Johnny, we don’t need love for each other, we don’t need time for this to mend, we (just) need all of us forever, but we don’t need love.”
Holding her head down and her body shaking my Lucy smiled and then walked away. Not once, would she look back nor would she stay.
As I sat there and watched her leave me, her words wrestling in my mind, the starry sky began to rumble with fiery rain.
I asked, Johnny how could you do it, and I swear I looked through blinded eyes, and may God forgive me; but for the likes of me, I wondered why.
I’m a 300-pound bruising bulldog and facing me any man would die, but through mama’s eyes all I could do was cry.
As I lied there in the mud with my body trembling in the rain, crying, I was humbled from my pain.
From somewhere in the distance her words keep rolling through my mind and for the rest of my life I hear them time after time… “We don’t need love for each other, we don’t need time for this to mend, we [just] need all of us forever, but we don’t need love….”Copyright 2012 Delbert H. Rhodes